Self Obsession

mood: weird

music: wheezer - buddy holly

you know the feeling you get when you desperately wish or hope for something to happen? when that something you want is something quite impossible; when that something you so desperately want to happen has a less than 1% chance of ever going to happen; when you've helplessly fallen into a quicksand where no one even bothers to pull you out from?; and when you know for a fact that even if that something was to happen, by i don't know, some miracle -- if miracles do exist, you're bound to spend an eternity of misery anyway? it's funny how i've come to realize that we create our own problems, we make our own quicksand and we manufacture our own bullshit.

i am flawed. this is one fact of life I am so painfully coping up the hard way. but then I don’t see the need for regrets. I’m still young, and I know there are plenty more bullshit to tackle along the way. 

that which does not kill you only makes you stronger. i get to put this saying to the test. yay me.